So many chapters of my life are ending right now, and so many 'last's' are happening. My freshman year of high school is over. Never again will I pass my senior-or junior, for that matter- friends in the halls at school. Last night I ate my last dinner with my full family before I get back from Germany due to summer plans. Tomorrow will be the last time all four Paul sisters are together until, once again, I get back from Germany. Tonight I attended my last American high school event for over a year, and my last ever with one of my closest friends who is a senior. And on top of it all, the last ever episode of "The Office" was aired. The nostalgia brought on by all of this is overwhelming.
But then...at the same time, with every ending comes a beginning. Summer is just starting and then my sophomore year is waiting not too far ahead. When I get back from Germany, my sister Leslie will be entering her ninth grade year, and we will be in the same school for the first time since elementary. Who knows, maybe we'll be friends ;) And I can't wait to hear all about my older friends' college experiences. Before I know it, I will be eating dinner with a new family, my new family. I might have new siblings, and I will have a whole new, probably very different, high school where I will make many lifelong friends, I'm sure. All of this because, most importantly, in 70 days I will be leaving my home to begin a long journey that already has, and will continue to change my life.
Sometimes when I think back on good memories, times I can never go back to, I can get pretty depressed, but that's life, so the best thing you can do is force yourself not to dwell on the past, or even too much on the future, but to live in the present, because it's really all you have. You can't relive moments, and you can't live in the future, because it doesn't exist; it's just something we call time that hasn't happened yet, and when it does happen, it is the present. You will always be in the present. Every moment you are living is your life, so don't just let things happen, make things happen, so that when you do look back, it won't be with regret.
Today's Song: "Be Still" by The Killers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IM3-AWhmI6w
Yours,
Anne
